Nothing to Fear!

God showed out today!  The day began with apprehension, uncertainty and tears on the couch.  What was going to happen next? Where should we go?  What should we do? What will the doctors say or do?  It seemed as if the darkness of worry was going keep the day overcast despite the sun shining outside.  It is hard to be away from all our encouragers.  At 6 AM this morning it was as if Satan himself was taunting me saying,"How will you make it through tomorrow with your friends and family so far away in Georgia. You are all alone.  You are not strong enough to do this."   But, the power of your prayers has reached across the miles to lead us into the bright light of God's promise. 

I forgot what it was like to live out of a suitcase.  The hotel was nice but it just wasn't home.  There was little space and no where to put things.  So Jason and Lori Fuller, our awesome travel agent, continued looking for a place for us to call home while we are here.  It was frustrating to say the least.  I was ready to give up. I said a quiet prayer.  I told Jason lets just stop looking and thinking about it and just wait and see where things are going.  We took off for a ride around town and decided why not check back with the first condo rental facility one more time.  We put on our "Kick Cancer's Butt"  shoes and walked into the rental office and told them we needed a condo now.  They said no problem you can have one tomorrow. 

Some might call that a win and walk away but I wanted it today not really knowing what tomorrow would bring physically, emotionally, and spiritually for my family and I.  The agent offered to check and if she could do some finagling to make it work.  In ,a whirlwind of Holy Spirit power everything fell into place.  We were able to move out of the hotel without losing any

money and move into a fully furnished condo today!  It is beautiful, relaxing, has shuttle service to the hospital and Target (hehehe! hehehe! and Jason thought I couldn't go shopping out here)  and it is only one mile from the hospital.  I have already put out pictures of Savannah and Ella and it feels like home. 

But, I was still feeling alone. My husband is wonderful and a great caretaker.  And, I know it sounds a little childish, but I needed my mommy!  We thought this would be impossible considering the needs of my brothers and sisters and her schedule.  But I really wanted her here tomorrow to ask questions and to be another set of ears to hear what the doctors had to say.  Jason and I prayed about it together and God affirmed it and then he showed out!  Within in 30 minutes all the details were worked out and four short hours later she was on a plane.

So a day that started with tears on a couch ended with Mom in Houston, a husband that loves me, good friends that show me that they love me (thank you West Point Girls), and, peace and confident trust that none of us are alone in this journey called life.  God goes before us.  He is the Victor.  He has already won the battle.  We have nothing to fear!

With Love and Thanks for Each of You,
Jessica

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Tomorrow Jessica and Jason will meet with the doctors of M.D. Anderson. They ask that you check back here for details instead of calling.  We will post information as we are able.